you scare me brother

(you scare me brother)

Born two years after me,
I shared a house with you
my entire childhood.

As the older sibling,
it was me who brought the torture for years
as you then needed more attention than i
from our creators.
(jealousy, my part)

As we grew into the ages of adulthood,
new holes in the wall became old.
You held a vendetta against life the people of the home couldn’t understand.

in the distance, i shouted alone:

YOU SCARE ME BROTHER

Now, we rarely talk.

You hold up to the same standards as the creators of my children.
No support, no effort to care for the lives you created with these women.

(In retrospect, maybe that’s a wise decision—
I don’t know.)

(you scare me brother)